I’ve been drafting out all my blogs not posting anything. If I say my life has been hectic, that would simply be an understatement. I’ve been meaning to put out several update blogs, but have been super lazy and busy in between. So, I’m going to power through with this one today, publish it, even if it is all over the place. EDIT: this has been drafted for 2 weeks lol.
Back in December of last year, I was going though hell with HBO Max. After that hell, I vowed to myself I never wanted to be an executive assistant again. However, my friends encouraged me to give the TV world another shot. After all, I hadn’t been in it for a full year and it could have been just HBO Max’s culture that wasn’t for me. And with the recent lay offs over there that impacted my old team, it was a blessing that I left. And also karma…but I will talk about that and lay offs in Hollywood/corporate America another time 🙂
I Can’t Change Hollywood’s Exploits
Now that I’ve been in the industry for a little over year and a half, I am officially leaving again. Apart of me wishes I would have taken my time more job hunting earlier this year because I had a variety of opportunities in different spaces that I’m still eager to go into now. Then again, I wouldn’t have been able to meet the amazing people at work that I know now. And most importantly, I wouldn’t have known how fucked up and exploitative TV can really be and why I’m certain on deterring from it.
So here I am now, just a few days apart of no longer being tied to a billion dollar company, feeling like my soul has been sucked out of my life. And although things were promising in the start, the workload has me in my head constantly. Going into my career path, I heard about the horrors of being an assistant in Hollywood. I still signed up for it thinking, hmm it really just depends on the team.
And to be fair, it really does just depend on the team. That being said, in almost every company out here, assistants are slumped in workload, egos, and most of the time low pay or just straight up unpaid hours. I’ve been through the glamour of seeing so many shows get made and seeing celebs pop into the scene. Despite that, I’m no longer fascinated and in fact I’m very unhappy with my career. And people outside the industry would congratulate me if I were to announce where I work at and where I’ve been in. In a way, I have better than most people especially financially.
I can still congratulate myself knowing I’ve achieved so much for my age, moved to a different state (which I plan on staying because I love my Cali life) working for companies people try so hard to break into. But it’s a been there done that thing for me now, and I’m ready to move on.
I Don’t Think I Can Be Happy In Corporate America
I know I was able to make it out the projects and have a stable foundation for myself. But no matter how much money I have, none of the benefits/privileges corporate America can bring me can make me feel fully happy. And trust me, I will continue going in depth on how corporate America can impact POC.
It’s nice getting confirmation when you know something isn’t for you. It’s felt even better saying that out loud as well. No more lying, just me straight admitting the truth. Right now, I’m back job hunting and trying to desperately avoid the big media companies. The money was amazing and it’s enough to keep me pretty set for the next few months (though I’m not trying to burn it through). But I do have a PTSD of these places and I’m specifically trying to shy away from it. And like I said, this terrible experience needed to happen because I have to learn that this isn’t the world for me, and that’s okay. Going through this twice is enough for me to realize, you need a different world.
I’m much happier now and thank it to my social circle, my family, and the current guy I’m seeing 💕. And after hearing another friend complain about Disney and who is sinking in depression now, I’m glad it’s time for me to look onto a new path. After all, I’m 23 and have the time to do so 🤷♀️. It’s crazy, but I’m literally living through Beyonce’s Break My Soul!
